darcking

so i'm sitting here pondering on my life..super deep in thought drifting between my personal life, and the contemplation of our existence. and i realized while i will always have my old friends..those i have known my entire life. i have made a few newer friends whom have become the people i can trust with the most personal inner workings of my mind and heart. people i can trust with my life...and a couple of them i have never actually seen face to face but have known for years...its strange how the internet can bring people together, and bring people into your life that can be the best friends you have had in years. i just want to thank every

so I found out my debt i have even though i put a hold on it because i cannot afford to pay it, they have added nearly 1,000 dollars to my debt in less than 2 months...at this rate..i will never be out of debt..and never be able to pay for anything in my life..because i have such an incredible debt..ill need 3 jobs just to be able to make the payments. Why does this stuff seem to happen to me?

nothing is going right..all my plans are falling apart..everything I've worked towards have crumbled underneath me and i'm not sure how much more i can take...i feel like i should just curl up in a ball and disappear for a while. Something needs to change for the better or i may break under all this crap. a few of the footnotes of things going on right now... may need a new liver soon..getting mine biopsied to see how much longer it can last. losing people i care about left and right, as well as betraying my trust... built up a podcast now half the people are leaving it without much warning. may have food poisoning... starting to get a